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Previously on You:
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What are you doing, Love?
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That boy will distract you from your son.
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I can't cage what's inside of me.
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Better to feed it just enough
to keep it in check,
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but make sure it knows the rules.
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So now I have you, Marienne.
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Things will be different this time.
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Oh.
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If you look up "klutz,"
there's a picture of me.
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Oh.
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Okay.
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Here's what I've learned about you
in the last few days, Marienne.
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You like things that make you feel.
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You're whimsical and artsy. You don't like
things that go together too perfectly.
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You find beauty in the flaws.
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Unexpected pairings.
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You're deep, reverent, rooted,
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yet adventurous.
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You're at home in chaos,
but something tells me not by choice.
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You take care of books
and art and young minds,
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but who takes care of you?
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No. No, no, no. This is not why I'm here.
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I'm here, well,
to figure out why I'm here.
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Why you, Marienne?
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So I must leave everything as I found it.
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I like following you.
You're interesting and unpredictable.
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And that inner part of me
that needs this is mostly satiated,
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but in the spirit of self-awareness
and maybe conquering that inner thing,
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I ask again,
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why am I drawn to you?
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Great! Yeah, sure.
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Shit.
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Oh, all right.
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Okay.
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Okay, great.
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Home early.
It's very unusual for you.
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Yes, yes, I know that place.
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Okay. Yeah, great. I'll see you there.
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What's got you stepping
out of your routine?
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I dearly hope it doesn't involve
pegging someone on this bed. RIP Peach.
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Okay, now you're just playing with me.
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Lipstick.
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Are you going on a date?
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My wife.
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I deserve this.
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Aw, Daddy's still working.
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She's the best wife ever...
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while I'm doing this.
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All to prove you aren't worth it.
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You are just a fleeting crush.
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- Dad, hey, what...?
- Hi.
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What about Tokyo?
You said you'd be away till next month.
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Yeah. Team's wrapping things up, so...
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Okay, well, congrats
on your sudden ability to delegate.
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Thank you.
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So, like, you forgot
to sleep over there, or...?
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I just got off a long flight, Theo.
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- It's good to have you home.
- Good to be home.
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Did you wanna ask why I'm here?
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Of course.
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Of course.
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- What happened at school?
- Decided to take some time off.
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With everything that happened,
felt like it was starting to get to me.
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Hey, that's okay.
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I can understand.
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- We could go grab some food.
- I can't. I've got stuff to do inside.
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Yeah, yeah. For sure.
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Remember when we crashed Dad's
beloved Maserati? We were all banged up.
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But better to suffer in silence
than let him know what we did.
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This feels like that.
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Only, I can't take this damaged thing
to the wrong side of town
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and claim someone stole it.
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I cheated on my soul mate.
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What's wrong with me, Forty?
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If you were here, you'd laugh.
You said I'd be a terrible mom.
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Number two might be in me as we speak,
and there's no one I can tell that...
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I'm not sure I want it.
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Stop insinuating.
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It's not Theo's baby.
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Couldn't be, I don't think.
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What am I doing?
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Your phone is dead in my nightstand
because you are dead.
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And no one will ever read this.
So, what am I confessing for?
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Speaking of terrible mothers...
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Ugh. The last thing I need is a weekend
all about Dottie and her second act.
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I wish you were here.
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I need you.
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♪ The visions never stop ♪
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♪ These ribbons wrap me up ♪
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♪ But when I reach for you
There's just a supercut ♪
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♪ In your car, the radio up ♪
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♪ In your car, the radio up ♪
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♪ We keep tryin' to talk about us ♪
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♪ I'm someone, you may be my love... ♪
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Oh, my God. Theo, stop it!
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What the fuck?
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What the fuck are you doing?
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Thought that would get your attention.
This shit's romantic as fuck.
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- What are you talking about?
- According to all the rom-coms
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of your generation,
this is what the guys do to get the girl.
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First of all, I'm not that old.
And this is not a game, Theo.
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Okay, okay, I'm sorry. Sorry.
I don't know what to do.
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But you're ignoring me.
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I just... I need your advice
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'cause you're the only person
that I actually trust.
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So my dad's back.
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He's already sequestered in his office.
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And I just...
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I don't know.
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I don't know what to do.
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He's not doing well.
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Yeah. Your dad is grieving, Theo.
It's a roller coaster that doesn't end.
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I was just texting my dead brother.
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- Come here.
- What? No.
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Just go take care of your dad.
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I know he can be a dick,
but try to see where he's coming from.
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I bet it's not a bad place.
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Okay.
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Can I ask you one more thing?
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Sure.
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Do you think of me
during sex with your husband?
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- Seriously?
- Because yours is the only face I see.
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You need to leave.
Go take care of your dad.
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Do I deserve this?
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Is this new baby a gift or a punishment?
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God, that sounds terrible. Am I terrible?
Why did I do it, Forty, if I'm so happy?
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- Need help over there?
- No, I got it.
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Smells amazing.
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I don't deserve him.
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I don't deserve her.
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She's making food,
so I'm nourished all weekend,
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and here I am counting the minutes
till she's gone so I can follow you.
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- Perfect bite. Ready?
- Ooh.
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Oh, yeah.
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Mm.
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Let me be clear. You fascinate me.
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But Love is my soul mate,
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mother of my child,
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love of my life.
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And my job as a husband
and a father is to keep it that way.
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I'm happy.
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Of course you are.
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Your mind's on nothing but your wife.
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All the time.
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Hey, you okay?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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How do you get it so fucking moist?
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Come show me.
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Yeah. Just like that.
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That was great.
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That was so great.
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I appreciate you taking
this meeting face-to-face.
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I like to know I can put you in a headlock
when I'm not getting through to you.
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A loving headlock.
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I can only assume
the best part of this is now behind us.
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I'd appreciate if you tell me
before you hire an investigator
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to look into your wife's case
that's closed.
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- Is it? You bought that?
- What did he find?
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He tell you
the neighbors' daughter's a coke dealer?
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Wanna take a look?
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- Help yourself.
- Oh.
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Bottom-line it, anything remotely
interesting in all this guy's work?
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One thing that's interesting to me
is your neighbor, the baker,
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Quinn of the L.A. Quinns,
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meaning she probably has her own PIs
who know what you're up to.
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And the most litigious father this side
of Republicans whining for a recount.
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Except Ray Quinn, he wins.
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- I haven't broken any laws.
- A look this bad should be illegal.
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You mean, my trying to figure out
who murdered my wife? Can you imagine?
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You do understand what will happen
when the townspeople learn
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you're having them investigated?
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They'll make noise.
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- Great.
- No, not great.
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I just spent six months trying to put
some light between this company
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and words like marital affair, murder.
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- Different lanes.
- I'm not disappearing your ass
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back to Tokyo while I spend another six
putting out more fires you've lit.
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Different fucking lanes!
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This isn't about the company.
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Oh, because you and the company I protect
aren't at all the exact same thing?
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Listen, I...
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I understand that you're grieving.
That's reasonable.
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Grieve.
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But this?
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This will cost not just you
but every person who works for you.
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You'll destroy lives for nothing
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because the worst offense
the townspeople are guilty of is
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tacky athleisure.
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It stops now. You get that, right?
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♪ If you cover my mouth with your hands ♪
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♪ Try to silence me ♪
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♪ I'll scream out as loud as I can ♪
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♪ Shouldn't bite the hand that feeds me ♪
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♪ But you're not the man ♪
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♪ And when I stick it to you
We'll see who's dramatic ♪
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♪ You say that I'm safe ♪
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♪ While you look for someone... ♪
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Alrighty.
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Thank you.
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♪ I think you're a bit too late... ♪
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Maybe I'll actually get
some answers this weekend. God, I hope.
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Changing lives is my passion.
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That's why I bought Casa Gaia Vineyard
and intend to make it a hub
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for transformation
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and organic, biodynamic fine wines.
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Course, Dottie befriends Sherry
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and her billion followers.
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Lot of chances to sell mommy-juice.
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These women are about to experience
a defining moment in their lives.
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The Women Optimizing Motherhood
and Business Summit
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will set a path into the future.
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Hashtag "W.O.M.B."
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I'm drowning in her estrogen.
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Now let's toast.
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To womanhood, motherhood
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and the entrepreneurial spirit.
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And cut. Yes!
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That was perfection.
I'll check this file and AirDrop you.
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The Internet is gonna swoon
when you post this.
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- Thank you for being here.
- Hey, Sherry.
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- Sweetie.
- Hi, Mom.
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- Did the nursery take our little man?
- Practically took him out of my hands.
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This could not have come at a better time.
You look exhausted.
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It begins.
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Yeah, I haven't made it to my room yet
but thank you.
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Trust me. Come Monday, you will be
the picture of relaxation. Want some?
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I'm good.
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Not pregnant, are you?
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- Keep it together. She smells fear.
- I'm on a mini detox.
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You are? Oh, my God.
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- Is it Joe's or that neighbor kid's?
- Keep your voice down. I was...
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I have seconds before kickoff.
We'll finish this later.
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Maybe a little lipstick, sweetheart?
You're pale.
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Remember pretending to be orphans?
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That was fun.
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Your work face, giving nothing away.
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Excuse me. Where's Narnia?
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Oh, it's in Kid Lit.
You see that tree over there?
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- Thank you.
- Yeah.
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You're leaving mid-shift?
Could this be opportunity knocking?
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Hey, Dante.
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Marienne asked me to take care
of the overdue notices?
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Was that at the desk here?
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Her office. She'll be back in an hour.
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Okay. I think she meant while she's out.
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So diligent...
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after taking three hours
to shelve that one cart this morning.
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Thank you.
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Okay.
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Doesn't exactly scream skeletons
but then neither do you.
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00:17:56,075 --> 00:17:58,535
There's nothing in your work files
or search history.
254
00:17:58,619 --> 00:18:01,580
It's just, there's no "you" here at all,
255
00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:04,291
which tells me
I'm not looking hard enough.
256
00:18:08,128 --> 00:18:11,590
Hmm. "Recovery." This is a surprise.
257
00:18:11,673 --> 00:18:15,552
This deepens my curiosity,
and now I need more.
258
00:18:25,354 --> 00:18:26,647
"Child endangerment"?
259
00:18:28,107 --> 00:18:29,316
"Neglect."
260
00:18:29,399 --> 00:18:30,400
"Abuse."
261
00:18:30,484 --> 00:18:32,319
This can't be right.
262
00:18:34,446 --> 00:18:36,240
The ex-husband, I presume.
263
00:18:37,825 --> 00:18:39,451
The more I know,
264
00:18:39,535 --> 00:18:41,870
the less I understand.
265
00:18:41,954 --> 00:18:44,081
Who are you?
266
00:18:44,623 --> 00:18:46,416
What I do know,
267
00:18:46,500 --> 00:18:48,252
your problems are serious.
268
00:18:48,335 --> 00:18:50,420
You're a mess.
269
00:18:50,504 --> 00:18:52,214
I have a loving wife, a son.
270
00:18:52,297 --> 00:18:54,967
I can't have anything to do
with your red flags.
271
00:18:55,050 --> 00:18:57,594
This itch has been scratched.
272
00:19:00,139 --> 00:19:04,434
"What did I want? A tarnished
marriage that takes so much work to heal?
273
00:19:04,518 --> 00:19:06,228
A family that consumed me?
274
00:19:06,854 --> 00:19:09,439
No, I deserved better.
275
00:19:09,523 --> 00:19:12,067
All at once,
I knew what that looked like."
276
00:19:12,151 --> 00:19:13,694
What does it look like?
277
00:19:14,486 --> 00:19:16,697
"I realized I had more to offer."
278
00:19:19,908 --> 00:19:21,535
And so, I started writing.
279
00:19:21,618 --> 00:19:23,871
Eventually, I started my own company,
280
00:19:23,954 --> 00:19:25,706
and it was hard.
281
00:19:25,789 --> 00:19:27,166
It was exhausting.
282
00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:30,335
But if I could do it, you can too.
283
00:19:30,919 --> 00:19:33,380
That's it?
284
00:19:33,964 --> 00:19:36,216
All right. Who has a question?
285
00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:40,220
- Yes, right here.
- Given all you've accomplished,
286
00:19:40,304 --> 00:19:42,014
how do you stay so humble?
287
00:19:42,097 --> 00:19:43,682
Is she joking?
288
00:19:43,765 --> 00:19:48,395
I start the first half hour
of every morning expressing gratitude.
289
00:19:48,979 --> 00:19:52,566
A great way to remember that none of us
can get through this life without help.
290
00:19:53,984 --> 00:19:55,611
All right. Who's next?
291
00:19:56,361 --> 00:19:59,740
If you're supposed to be giving us
the secret of joy,
292
00:19:59,823 --> 00:20:00,824
what is it?
293
00:20:02,284 --> 00:20:05,579
I don't hear you saying
what a 21st-century professional mother
294
00:20:05,662 --> 00:20:07,789
is supposed to do to find happiness.
295
00:20:08,373 --> 00:20:09,499
Simple.
296
00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:11,543
If you focus on watering your own grass,
297
00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:13,837
you never have to wonder
if it's greener anywhere else.
298
00:20:13,921 --> 00:20:17,716
But what does that mean? I...
I water my own grass, and I don't...
299
00:20:17,799 --> 00:20:20,636
- Okay, next.
- It's fine. You don't what?
300
00:20:20,719 --> 00:20:24,014
You don't feel how incredibly green
your own grass is?
301
00:20:24,097 --> 00:20:26,058
Is it possible
that you don't wanna succeed?
302
00:20:26,141 --> 00:20:30,270
That you feel guilty for what you have
and you sabotage your happiness?
303
00:20:34,608 --> 00:20:38,278
I would suggest a look inward
and read my book.
304
00:20:38,362 --> 00:20:41,448
To read more about your narcissistic climb
to success, when, poof,
305
00:20:41,531 --> 00:20:43,450
you suddenly discovered
you were deserving?
306
00:20:43,533 --> 00:20:45,786
Sounds like privileged bullshit to me.
307
00:20:51,959 --> 00:20:53,043
I'm not sorry.
308
00:20:53,126 --> 00:20:57,923
She doesn't know what she's talking about.
I do want to succeed, obviously, right?
309
00:20:58,006 --> 00:21:01,426
You are powerful. You are loved.
You are forgiven.
310
00:21:02,052 --> 00:21:03,929
Mm. Thank you.
311
00:21:04,763 --> 00:21:06,848
I am sorry.
312
00:21:06,932 --> 00:21:10,644
- We've moved on.
- It's not too late to turn the day around.
313
00:21:10,727 --> 00:21:14,523
Sherry had the brilliant idea, we do
an IGTV interview with each other and...
314
00:21:14,606 --> 00:21:16,191
We want you to be a part of it.
315
00:21:17,776 --> 00:21:19,903
- Interview for what?
- Our brands.
316
00:21:19,987 --> 00:21:22,948
But also to counteract
your little outburst.
317
00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:27,077
You were right about one thing.
318
00:21:27,619 --> 00:21:30,914
Women need to see other successful women
supporting each other.
319
00:21:30,998 --> 00:21:34,293
How better to use our privilege, right?
320
00:21:34,793 --> 00:21:36,920
Hashtag "You can sit with us."
321
00:21:38,588 --> 00:21:39,588
Sure.
322
00:21:45,554 --> 00:21:46,847
Hello, goddesses.
323
00:21:46,930 --> 00:21:48,765
I'm at the W.O.M.B. Summit
324
00:21:48,849 --> 00:21:51,310
with Heart-Shaped Mistakes creator
325
00:21:51,393 --> 00:21:54,896
and fellow twin mom Sherry Conrad.
326
00:21:55,605 --> 00:21:56,605
Sherry,
327
00:21:57,274 --> 00:21:59,109
your blog moves me.
328
00:21:59,735 --> 00:22:02,362
But it's your heart
that really touches me.
329
00:22:02,446 --> 00:22:03,864
Oh, Dottie.
330
00:22:03,947 --> 00:22:05,157
Oh, woof.
331
00:22:05,240 --> 00:22:08,076
You are a shining light for us all.
332
00:22:08,577 --> 00:22:11,705
- Thank you for being my soul sister.
- Vomit emoji.
333
00:22:11,788 --> 00:22:13,332
And last but not least,
334
00:22:13,415 --> 00:22:16,960
my pride and joy, Love Quinn-Goldberg.
335
00:22:18,462 --> 00:22:22,674
I'm so proud to have raised a daughter
whose grit nearly matches my own.
336
00:22:22,758 --> 00:22:24,718
- Nearly?
- Doing it all.
337
00:22:24,801 --> 00:22:29,264
Husband, business, 1-year-old,
all with possibly another on the way.
338
00:22:29,348 --> 00:22:30,348
Oh, my God, Mom.
339
00:22:30,432 --> 00:22:32,768
- Oh, my God, Love! Amazing!
- What the fuck?
340
00:22:32,851 --> 00:22:35,062
- What are you doing?
- Sherry, give us a second.
341
00:22:35,145 --> 00:22:37,856
- Love, I just...
- Seriously, get the fuck out.
342
00:22:39,066 --> 00:22:40,066
Thank you.
343
00:22:41,234 --> 00:22:45,072
How the hell could you do that?
I'm not sure. I haven't told Joe.
344
00:22:45,781 --> 00:22:49,993
It's not surprising. The problems
in your marriage keep stacking up.
345
00:22:50,077 --> 00:22:52,370
Mom, it has nothing to do with you.
346
00:22:52,454 --> 00:22:55,248
My life, my marriage, my womb,
347
00:22:55,332 --> 00:22:58,335
none of your fucking business,
and not to share on social media.
348
00:22:58,418 --> 00:23:00,921
- Don't speak to me like that.
- Somebody has to.
349
00:23:01,588 --> 00:23:03,965
You're the reason
Forty and I are fucked up.
350
00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:07,010
- Don't talk about him.
- No wonder that our life turned into this.
351
00:23:07,094 --> 00:23:09,888
All you ever showed me
was to get the prince,
352
00:23:09,971 --> 00:23:12,390
build a castle,
and then burn it all to the ground.
353
00:23:12,474 --> 00:23:15,977
Says the princess who was given all
the mattresses in the world to sleep on
354
00:23:16,061 --> 00:23:18,105
and still complains she can feel a pea.
355
00:23:18,188 --> 00:23:19,773
I gave you the world,
356
00:23:19,856 --> 00:23:21,691
you ungrateful, little bitch.
357
00:23:21,775 --> 00:23:24,820
You have no idea
what I had to do to give it to you.
358
00:23:25,362 --> 00:23:28,156
Your choice to fuck the neighbor boy
or blow up your life
359
00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:33,036
has nothing to do with me and everything
to do with you being spoiled and bored.
360
00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:36,832
I'll take the blame for spoiling you.
But the source of your unhappiness?
361
00:23:36,915 --> 00:23:41,044
Look in the mirror instead of spouting
your hypocrisy at everyone else.
362
00:24:19,374 --> 00:24:20,709
Dad, I got you dinner.
363
00:24:25,297 --> 00:24:26,297
Dad?
364
00:24:31,511 --> 00:24:35,015
Come on, you can be mad at me,
but at least eat something.
365
00:25:04,085 --> 00:25:05,253
What the fuck?
366
00:25:14,763 --> 00:25:16,473
Almost ready to go, Goldberg?
367
00:25:16,556 --> 00:25:18,767
No, you go ahead. I'll close up.
368
00:25:18,850 --> 00:25:22,145
The smell of your perfume could
erase everything I've learned today.
369
00:25:22,229 --> 00:25:26,233
- Best to hang back for now.
- No way. You know the rules.
370
00:25:33,031 --> 00:25:35,700
Do me a favor
and stay down there a sec, okay?
371
00:25:35,784 --> 00:25:36,993
You hired a lawyer?
372
00:25:37,077 --> 00:25:39,120
- Let's talk outside.
- No.
373
00:25:39,204 --> 00:25:40,404
Is that your ex-husband?
374
00:25:40,455 --> 00:25:42,808
No, you don't have any rights,
you fucking junkie.
375
00:25:42,832 --> 00:25:44,459
That doesn't sound right.
376
00:25:44,542 --> 00:25:46,854
- Listen to me...
- Get your hands off...
377
00:25:46,878 --> 00:25:50,298
- Get your hands off me!
- No, no... Hey, no, we're not done.
378
00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:51,382
Hey!
379
00:25:52,342 --> 00:25:55,470
- What is going on here?
- Hey, man, I'm sorry. That...
380
00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:59,849
This looks bad, right?
I knocked that over by accident.
381
00:25:59,933 --> 00:26:01,559
It must have sounded crazy.
382
00:26:02,435 --> 00:26:03,853
I'm... I'm Ryan Goodwin.
383
00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:06,731
If I look familiar, Channel Three News.
384
00:26:07,399 --> 00:26:11,069
I recognize you.
I think you should leave, Ryan.
385
00:26:12,112 --> 00:26:13,112
Yeah, sure.
386
00:26:13,780 --> 00:26:14,780
Sure.
387
00:26:15,198 --> 00:26:18,785
Look, you know, exes.
388
00:26:19,828 --> 00:26:23,999
- But the respect's there.
- Don't look at her. Just go.
389
00:26:26,626 --> 00:26:27,626
Yeah.
390
00:26:29,337 --> 00:26:30,463
Talk later, Mare.
391
00:26:34,217 --> 00:26:36,052
- You okay?
- You shouldn't have done that.
392
00:26:36,136 --> 00:26:37,429
I didn't ask for your help.
393
00:26:37,512 --> 00:26:40,098
What part of "stay out of it"
did you not understand?
394
00:26:40,181 --> 00:26:41,850
Was that too hard?
395
00:26:41,933 --> 00:26:43,973
You really had to run up here
like some white knight
396
00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:46,104
and get in the middle of my shit?
397
00:26:46,187 --> 00:26:47,564
You're crazy!
398
00:26:47,647 --> 00:26:50,984
Which is 100%
none of your goddamn business, Joe!
399
00:26:51,067 --> 00:26:53,945
- You sick fuck!
- I see it now.
400
00:26:54,029 --> 00:26:56,031
This is why "you."
401
00:26:56,114 --> 00:26:59,868
- You're a pattern.
- Thought he'd be better this time.
402
00:26:59,951 --> 00:27:02,495
If you look up "klutz,"
there's a picture of me.
403
00:27:02,579 --> 00:27:04,914
You're a lost lamb
attracted to wolves.
404
00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:07,208
- Ergo, what I feel...
- Just let me handle it.
405
00:27:07,292 --> 00:27:12,088
...it's not because you're special, it's...
Wait for it. It's mother issues.
406
00:27:12,172 --> 00:27:13,965
How's that for self-awareness?
407
00:27:15,133 --> 00:27:16,468
Am I amusing you?
408
00:27:16,551 --> 00:27:18,470
No, no, no. No.
409
00:27:19,346 --> 00:27:21,473
I'm sorry. Also, I'm not sorry.
410
00:27:21,556 --> 00:27:24,768
I'm not one to let bullies bully.
I would've done that for anybody.
411
00:27:25,977 --> 00:27:26,977
Okay.
412
00:27:46,831 --> 00:27:49,334
Fuck Dottie.
413
00:27:50,627 --> 00:27:53,630
What's she know?
We were accessories to her.
414
00:27:53,713 --> 00:27:55,965
A couple of purse dogs she'd overfeed,
415
00:27:56,049 --> 00:27:58,843
then scream at
when we shit on her Gucci wallet.
416
00:27:58,927 --> 00:28:00,011
Fuck Dottie.
417
00:28:00,762 --> 00:28:02,013
I hate her.
418
00:28:15,360 --> 00:28:16,653
I hate you too.
419
00:28:17,487 --> 00:28:18,905
For leaving me with her.
420
00:28:18,988 --> 00:28:22,033
You should've just eaten me
in the womb, Forty.
421
00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:47,392
Did you just answer me?
422
00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:51,521
What the fuck?
423
00:28:51,604 --> 00:28:52,731
Forty?
424
00:28:54,941 --> 00:28:55,984
God.
425
00:28:58,445 --> 00:29:01,197
I am wasted.
426
00:29:08,538 --> 00:29:10,665
So wasted.
427
00:29:12,250 --> 00:29:14,419
Oh, my God. Forty!
428
00:29:15,879 --> 00:29:17,005
Wait.
429
00:29:18,256 --> 00:29:20,133
Are you really here?
430
00:29:22,218 --> 00:29:24,804
Yeah, of course, Lovey.
431
00:29:25,305 --> 00:29:27,515
I live inside you.
432
00:29:28,099 --> 00:29:29,142
I'm always here.
433
00:29:29,642 --> 00:29:34,397
♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪
434
00:29:36,107 --> 00:29:37,650
All seriousness though,
435
00:29:38,568 --> 00:29:42,906
how happy are we that I am
the only thing living inside you?
436
00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:45,992
Dodged a bullet.
437
00:29:46,826 --> 00:29:49,037
- Good job, vagina.
- Did I though?
438
00:29:49,120 --> 00:29:50,705
Dodge a bullet? I mean...
439
00:29:51,706 --> 00:29:52,916
I am relieved,
440
00:29:52,999 --> 00:29:58,505
but, I don't know, I can't help but wonder
if maybe another baby would calm me down.
441
00:29:59,547 --> 00:30:03,009
- Focus me a little.
- First of all, no.
442
00:30:03,092 --> 00:30:04,344
And, B,
443
00:30:05,345 --> 00:30:08,056
do you really think
focusing is what you need?
444
00:30:08,139 --> 00:30:09,974
I thought I needed to get married.
445
00:30:11,059 --> 00:30:13,394
Then move and start over.
446
00:30:14,062 --> 00:30:15,355
Then a bakery.
447
00:30:17,690 --> 00:30:19,984
Then someone who wasn't my husband.
448
00:30:20,068 --> 00:30:22,612
I get it though. That kid is pretty cool.
449
00:30:23,696 --> 00:30:25,406
Kind of reminds me of me.
450
00:30:30,328 --> 00:30:32,580
Forty, I don't know what happened.
451
00:30:34,249 --> 00:30:36,626
I fell so in love with Joe.
452
00:30:37,710 --> 00:30:40,004
But now I don't... I don't even...
453
00:30:42,298 --> 00:30:43,341
like him...
454
00:30:44,509 --> 00:30:45,509
anymore.
455
00:30:46,302 --> 00:30:49,556
I mean, he makes me feel bad for being me.
456
00:30:52,892 --> 00:30:55,562
That's not how your soul mate's supposed
to make you feel, right?
457
00:31:03,027 --> 00:31:05,280
I'm self-sabotaging, aren't I?
458
00:31:06,030 --> 00:31:07,030
Yeah.
459
00:31:10,493 --> 00:31:13,538
- Why can't I just be happy?
- Oh, Lovey.
460
00:31:15,039 --> 00:31:18,751
You're not happy
because Joe isn't your soul mate.
461
00:31:21,963 --> 00:31:22,963
I am.
462
00:31:24,090 --> 00:31:26,301
There is one person
463
00:31:26,384 --> 00:31:29,554
who understands
what you have been through.
464
00:31:29,637 --> 00:31:31,598
I slept on those mattresses too.
465
00:31:31,681 --> 00:31:34,809
I mean, that pea fucking killed me.
466
00:31:36,019 --> 00:31:38,688
I am so sorry.
467
00:31:39,856 --> 00:31:43,151
Don't be sorry for surviving.
468
00:31:46,195 --> 00:31:47,614
You were the strong one.
469
00:31:49,115 --> 00:31:51,826
You always knew
it was gonna turn out this way.
470
00:31:53,494 --> 00:31:55,288
It's why you held me so tight.
471
00:32:09,510 --> 00:32:11,846
♪ I'll be there ♪
472
00:32:12,555 --> 00:32:14,599
♪ I'll be there ♪
473
00:32:16,351 --> 00:32:22,815
♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪
474
00:32:37,830 --> 00:32:40,166
Mommy issues.
475
00:32:40,249 --> 00:32:43,503
I can't believe it's taken me this long.
I'm growing.
476
00:32:43,586 --> 00:32:47,548
"The absence of burden causes man
to be lighter than air,
477
00:32:47,632 --> 00:32:51,302
to soar into heights,
take leave of the earth, free.
478
00:32:51,386 --> 00:32:54,931
What then shall we choose?
Weight or lightness?"
479
00:33:00,144 --> 00:33:02,355
- Hey, what...?
- Hey. It's an emergency.
480
00:33:02,438 --> 00:33:04,440
I'm sorry for calling so late.
481
00:33:30,049 --> 00:33:31,175
- Hey.
- Hey.
482
00:33:31,968 --> 00:33:34,929
- What happened?
- Sprinkler system malfunctioned.
483
00:33:36,431 --> 00:33:40,309
I tried to get somebody to look at it,
now thousands of books are destroyed...
484
00:33:41,602 --> 00:33:44,313
- and I'll lose my job.
- That won't happen.
485
00:33:44,397 --> 00:33:47,608
Not your fault the county's too cheap
to invest in building upkeep.
486
00:33:50,528 --> 00:33:53,364
You happen to have called
the best book doctor in the world,
487
00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:55,783
so we'll figure out what's salvageable.
488
00:33:56,534 --> 00:33:57,618
It'll be fine.
489
00:33:58,661 --> 00:34:02,165
Okay. Well, I'm choosing to believe you.
490
00:34:10,131 --> 00:34:11,632
This is about books.
491
00:34:11,716 --> 00:34:13,551
For the love of books.
492
00:34:13,634 --> 00:34:15,803
I would've done the same thing
if Dante called.
493
00:34:16,387 --> 00:34:17,387
I'm sorry.
494
00:34:18,973 --> 00:34:22,727
About earlier.
I know you were just trying to help.
495
00:34:24,312 --> 00:34:26,397
I know it's no excuse,
496
00:34:27,815 --> 00:34:30,151
but my ex-husband brings out my worst.
497
00:34:30,735 --> 00:34:31,735
It's okay.
498
00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:34,030
We're all works in progress.
499
00:34:35,656 --> 00:34:38,868
"When you've been worked on for so long,
you never know you're done."
500
00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:42,205
Jericho Brown.
501
00:34:43,664 --> 00:34:45,083
You know his work?
502
00:34:45,166 --> 00:34:48,544
What am I doing, using my old games
on you? I'm not this guy anymore.
503
00:34:49,337 --> 00:34:54,509
I read his work in The New Yorker,
and that line... stayed with me.
504
00:34:54,592 --> 00:34:57,637
But I don't know
his writing much, actually.
505
00:35:09,023 --> 00:35:12,110
The way you've handled
those books. The care.
506
00:35:12,193 --> 00:35:14,237
Only a mother... Oh, there. Yep.
507
00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:15,404
Okay, stop.
508
00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:18,324
But just to pass the time...
509
00:35:18,407 --> 00:35:22,370
It's a personal question,
but we are technically off-hours.
510
00:35:22,453 --> 00:35:23,453
Just ask it.
511
00:35:24,372 --> 00:35:25,748
What's your daughter like?
512
00:35:30,211 --> 00:35:31,211
Amazing.
513
00:35:32,630 --> 00:35:34,298
Kind, funny,
514
00:35:34,382 --> 00:35:38,219
likes to go out
and look for fairy rings at the park.
515
00:35:38,302 --> 00:35:40,388
Excellent at finding them.
516
00:35:40,471 --> 00:35:41,806
Loves to draw.
517
00:35:42,390 --> 00:35:43,266
Like her mom.
518
00:35:43,349 --> 00:35:46,394
Yeah, nothing in this world beats
the feeling of...
519
00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:48,646
Of looking at your child
520
00:35:48,729 --> 00:35:51,482
and knowing you're watching
someone grow up better than you.
521
00:35:51,566 --> 00:35:54,485
How could you do anything
to hurt your child?
522
00:35:54,569 --> 00:35:55,778
All I see is love.
523
00:35:55,862 --> 00:35:56,946
Your turn.
524
00:35:57,572 --> 00:35:59,991
- What's Henry like?
- Oh, he's a terrorist.
525
00:36:00,741 --> 00:36:05,580
No, he's... He's adorable, he's sweet.
A big fan of Hemingway and Fitzgerald.
526
00:36:05,663 --> 00:36:07,707
No surprise,
you've seen him with the bottle.
527
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,460
I really hope he's better than me.
528
00:36:12,962 --> 00:36:14,213
Why do you look like that?
529
00:36:20,219 --> 00:36:22,889
I had this idea...
530
00:36:24,432 --> 00:36:26,142
of happily ever after.
531
00:36:26,225 --> 00:36:29,020
Perfect family, picket fence.
Now I have that.
532
00:36:29,687 --> 00:36:30,887
I want what's best for my son.
533
00:36:30,938 --> 00:36:34,317
I'm just worried that this suburban,
cookie-cutter existence isn't...
534
00:36:35,484 --> 00:36:37,820
Isn't it. I know it's nothing compared
to your situation.
535
00:36:37,904 --> 00:36:40,114
- I shouldn't be complaining.
- No, I get it.
536
00:36:40,198 --> 00:36:43,158
Raising kids is a whole different game
once you've gone through the system.
537
00:36:46,204 --> 00:36:48,044
Soon as you told me
you didn't come from money,
538
00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:50,124
all of a sudden
I could just see it on you.
539
00:36:52,376 --> 00:36:56,547
Yeah, I had been in a dozen foster homes
before I hit 18,
540
00:36:57,423 --> 00:37:00,468
and still, even though I knew
it made no sense, I...
541
00:37:02,386 --> 00:37:05,097
I never stopped thinking
my mom would show up and save me.
542
00:37:06,557 --> 00:37:08,559
She never did, of course,
543
00:37:09,143 --> 00:37:11,812
but sure made me wanna be
a better mom though.
544
00:37:13,898 --> 00:37:15,733
I held on to that same hope.
545
00:37:17,485 --> 00:37:18,569
For years.
546
00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:22,698
And got my ass kicked regularly for it.
547
00:37:22,782 --> 00:37:25,117
I think it kept me going.
548
00:37:26,077 --> 00:37:28,871
But she never came back either.
549
00:37:30,289 --> 00:37:34,710
I never talk about this with anyone,
not even Love.
550
00:37:36,796 --> 00:37:40,383
Despite her best intentions,
she could only understand to a point.
551
00:37:40,466 --> 00:37:42,551
But you understand completely.
552
00:37:46,597 --> 00:37:47,597
Um...
553
00:37:48,140 --> 00:37:49,934
We should get back to it.
554
00:37:51,143 --> 00:37:52,561
What happened with Ryan?
555
00:37:54,438 --> 00:37:55,438
I'm sorry.
556
00:37:55,982 --> 00:37:57,984
I'm not okay with what I saw,
557
00:37:58,067 --> 00:38:01,696
and I would like to know
how someone who treats you like that
558
00:38:01,779 --> 00:38:03,739
could have custody of your child.
559
00:38:25,970 --> 00:38:27,346
We were both addicts...
560
00:38:28,097 --> 00:38:29,598
when Juliette was a baby.
561
00:38:31,142 --> 00:38:32,727
One night, I...
562
00:38:33,853 --> 00:38:35,563
I sailed through a red light.
563
00:38:36,105 --> 00:38:39,025
And the other driver
was very seriously hurt,
564
00:38:39,108 --> 00:38:42,862
and the way that we collided,
if Juliette had been on the other side...
565
00:38:42,945 --> 00:38:44,613
Reckless endangerment of a child.
566
00:38:44,697 --> 00:38:47,616
That disaster, and the fact
that he got clean before I did,
567
00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:49,702
is how Ryan got full custody.
568
00:38:52,121 --> 00:38:55,124
The lies he's told ever since is
how he's kept it.
569
00:38:55,207 --> 00:38:56,250
The lies?
570
00:38:56,334 --> 00:38:58,544
Well, you know, he's got money.
571
00:38:58,627 --> 00:39:01,547
Beloved local celeb, a white man.
572
00:39:01,630 --> 00:39:05,217
And I think we can both agree,
white men get a million chances in life.
573
00:39:05,301 --> 00:39:10,181
So when he accuses me of child neglect,
for not showing up for my visitation,
574
00:39:10,264 --> 00:39:11,724
they believe him.
575
00:39:11,807 --> 00:39:14,518
Even when I swear
he gave me the wrong address.
576
00:39:15,227 --> 00:39:18,731
He can have me arrested
for destruction of property
577
00:39:18,814 --> 00:39:22,902
for keying his car that I barely scratched
'cause I chickened out.
578
00:39:22,985 --> 00:39:24,570
And my favorite,
579
00:39:25,363 --> 00:39:28,491
verbal and emotional abuse
for calling him a dickhead.
580
00:39:30,993 --> 00:39:34,246
Yeah, and he's had this case built
against me for years,
581
00:39:34,330 --> 00:39:35,873
and everyone believes him,
582
00:39:35,956 --> 00:39:40,920
everyone takes his word over mine
because... who am I?
583
00:39:42,004 --> 00:39:43,047
I'm sorry.
584
00:39:43,672 --> 00:39:47,551
I'm so sorry for what you've been through.
585
00:39:50,679 --> 00:39:53,682
Nobody forced me
to get behind the wheel that night.
586
00:39:53,766 --> 00:39:54,766
That's...
587
00:39:55,726 --> 00:39:57,395
That's a choice I live with.
588
00:39:57,478 --> 00:40:00,815
Yeah, but everything else,
Ryan manipulating the justice system,
589
00:40:00,898 --> 00:40:02,066
somebody should stop him.
590
00:40:02,149 --> 00:40:05,694
- I volunteer, happily.
- Well, I am working on it.
591
00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:09,281
I just met a new lawyer
for dinner last night.
592
00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:11,784
Lawyer. You weren't on a date.
593
00:40:12,451 --> 00:40:14,870
He thinks joint custody is doable
594
00:40:14,954 --> 00:40:18,416
if I can just show
how I'm really doing now
595
00:40:18,499 --> 00:40:19,834
and the judge sees it.
596
00:40:20,668 --> 00:40:26,799
If I was sure Ryan could never find us,
I would grab Juliette and run to Paris.
597
00:40:28,008 --> 00:40:31,137
And spend our days
drawing outside Sacré-Cœur.
598
00:40:33,722 --> 00:40:35,057
That sounds magical.
599
00:40:35,141 --> 00:40:36,350
For you.
600
00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:39,103
Tragic for me to lose you.
601
00:40:39,186 --> 00:40:43,274
I shouldn't have reduced you to my issues.
You're nothing like my mother.
602
00:40:43,357 --> 00:40:45,276
You adore your child
and she should be with you.
603
00:40:45,359 --> 00:40:47,736
You're just who you are.
604
00:40:48,529 --> 00:40:51,866
You don't hide or embellish,
you own your mistakes
605
00:40:51,949 --> 00:40:55,953
and stand up to the strikes
against you. You're so...
606
00:40:58,539 --> 00:41:01,667
Oh! No! Please, no!
607
00:41:03,461 --> 00:41:04,462
It's okay, look.
608
00:41:05,087 --> 00:41:07,173
I think, it's... It's just us.
609
00:41:56,388 --> 00:41:57,431
Oh, shit.
610
00:41:57,973 --> 00:41:59,350
Love is gonna kill you.
611
00:42:20,204 --> 00:42:22,873
Haven't really been yourself this weekend.
612
00:42:24,333 --> 00:42:26,752
- You really pregnant?
- This is a hangover.
613
00:42:28,087 --> 00:42:29,588
I'm not pregnant.
614
00:42:30,172 --> 00:42:31,840
I'm sorry to hear that.
615
00:42:33,842 --> 00:42:34,969
It's fine.
616
00:42:35,052 --> 00:42:36,595
Then what's going on?
617
00:42:36,679 --> 00:42:37,846
I don't know.
618
00:42:40,474 --> 00:42:43,435
I'm just not happy.
619
00:42:45,646 --> 00:42:47,189
And it's not Joe's fault.
620
00:42:47,773 --> 00:42:50,776
He's just not my soul mate.
621
00:42:51,360 --> 00:42:54,989
No one who tries to love you really
measures up when you're a twin.
622
00:42:55,072 --> 00:42:58,534
Well, I know from my own twins,
you are absolutely right.
623
00:42:58,617 --> 00:43:01,036
But the whole soul-mate thing,
624
00:43:01,620 --> 00:43:02,871
it's mostly bullshit.
625
00:43:03,831 --> 00:43:05,874
You choose your soul mate.
626
00:43:05,958 --> 00:43:07,334
Cary and I,
627
00:43:07,418 --> 00:43:10,004
we had some fundamental problems.
628
00:43:10,087 --> 00:43:12,172
I didn't even like him for a while.
629
00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:17,386
But I decided he was my person,
630
00:43:17,469 --> 00:43:18,887
and I made it work.
631
00:43:19,471 --> 00:43:22,182
Love, it's mostly chemicals.
632
00:43:22,266 --> 00:43:25,144
Dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin.
633
00:43:25,227 --> 00:43:26,437
To activate all three,
634
00:43:26,520 --> 00:43:29,356
exercise, eat some protein,
squeeze in eight hugs a day.
635
00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:31,817
- Mm.
- When you're happy and healthy,
636
00:43:31,900 --> 00:43:34,236
then you can make real choices.
637
00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:37,823
And that includes choosing your life mate.
638
00:43:37,906 --> 00:43:39,074
That easy, huh?
639
00:43:39,158 --> 00:43:40,659
It is not easy.
640
00:43:42,578 --> 00:43:44,496
But it is so worth it.
641
00:43:46,081 --> 00:43:47,499
Dear Forty,
642
00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:50,961
you've been my best friend
since before we were born.
643
00:43:51,837 --> 00:43:52,963
My other half.
644
00:43:53,964 --> 00:43:56,675
But I can't keep holding back
because I miss you.
645
00:43:56,759 --> 00:43:58,761
I can't raise a family
with a broken heart.
646
00:43:59,678 --> 00:44:01,347
I have to choose Joe now.
647
00:44:07,019 --> 00:44:08,562
I'll always love you.
648
00:44:10,064 --> 00:44:11,607
But I have to say goodbye.
649
00:44:12,483 --> 00:44:13,776
For real this time.
650
00:44:15,277 --> 00:44:17,029
As much as it hurts.
651
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:21,158
Goodbye, you.
652
00:44:35,214 --> 00:44:36,590
The fuck? What are you doing here?
653
00:44:38,884 --> 00:44:40,094
You called me.
654
00:44:40,678 --> 00:44:42,721
You drunk-dialed me at 4 a.m.
655
00:44:42,805 --> 00:44:45,974
I was worried, so I... So I Ubered.
656
00:44:46,058 --> 00:44:48,602
I'm sorry.
I don't remember that happening.
657
00:44:48,686 --> 00:44:50,020
Oh, wow.
658
00:44:50,104 --> 00:44:52,773
It's proof
that I'm in your subconscious though.
659
00:44:52,856 --> 00:44:53,856
Okay.
660
00:44:54,942 --> 00:44:57,528
I can drive you home,
but I need you to listen.
661
00:44:57,611 --> 00:44:59,196
I care about you a lot.
662
00:44:59,279 --> 00:45:03,575
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Can I just say something really quickly?
663
00:45:04,243 --> 00:45:05,077
Sure.
664
00:45:05,160 --> 00:45:06,912
My dad is a lot worse than I thought.
665
00:45:06,995 --> 00:45:11,708
I went into his office,
and he hired a PI to stalk people.
666
00:45:11,792 --> 00:45:16,755
And he has all this insane conspiracy shit
667
00:45:16,839 --> 00:45:19,091
about Natalie's murder
668
00:45:19,174 --> 00:45:22,928
with these names of people in Madre Linda,
669
00:45:23,011 --> 00:45:25,013
including you and Joe.
670
00:45:26,849 --> 00:45:27,849
What?
671
00:45:41,572 --> 00:45:44,408
Nurse Fiona,
I think you'll like this. It's...
672
00:45:51,415 --> 00:45:52,833
Wait for you outside, beautiful.
673
00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:02,342
Hey, kid.
674
00:46:03,177 --> 00:46:04,678
Love that book.
675
00:46:13,812 --> 00:46:16,315
Sorry, today is not a good day.
I have to...
676
00:46:16,398 --> 00:46:18,484
He gets mad at you and he hurts you.
677
00:46:19,151 --> 00:46:22,029
He says he's sorry,
it'll never happen again,
678
00:46:22,112 --> 00:46:24,490
and he gives you flowers, right?
679
00:46:27,784 --> 00:46:29,661
There are a lot of bad men out there,
680
00:46:29,745 --> 00:46:33,248
and sometimes you can't tell
until it's too late.
681
00:46:33,332 --> 00:46:35,292
Go outside and eat with the other boys.
682
00:46:51,433 --> 00:46:56,396
I know now, Marienne.
I know why "you," and it's no pattern.
683
00:46:57,147 --> 00:46:59,650
But today starts the next phase
684
00:46:59,733 --> 00:47:03,862
of my growth to know you exist,
to see you, to love you even,
685
00:47:04,321 --> 00:47:05,864
and to never have you.
686
00:47:05,948 --> 00:47:09,701
Because as long as I love you,
you'll be in danger.
687
00:47:11,161 --> 00:47:13,330
Hi. Hi, can we talk?
688
00:47:13,413 --> 00:47:16,375
- We have a lot to do today.
- You wanna forget what happened.
689
00:47:16,458 --> 00:47:18,585
Go back to business as usual.
I can't go back.
690
00:47:18,669 --> 00:47:22,297
It's only a matter of time before I'm
making treasure boxes for Love to find.
691
00:47:22,381 --> 00:47:24,758
- Marienne...
- I have feelings for you.
692
00:47:24,841 --> 00:47:26,969
I know nothing can happen.
693
00:47:27,052 --> 00:47:30,889
You're married,
with the cutest baby on the planet,
694
00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:32,933
and I'd never do anything
to split up a family,
695
00:47:33,016 --> 00:47:34,434
and I need you to know that.
696
00:47:36,103 --> 00:47:37,604
Not that you'd ever,
697
00:47:38,188 --> 00:47:39,773
obviously, because...
698
00:47:40,983 --> 00:47:42,526
you love your wife,
699
00:47:42,609 --> 00:47:47,322
and we were just exhausted
and caught up in the moment.
700
00:47:47,406 --> 00:47:50,576
So don't worry, I don't...
I don't want anything.
701
00:47:50,659 --> 00:47:51,659
I just...
702
00:47:52,244 --> 00:47:56,206
It can go away.
It can dissolve into nothing. Okay?
703
00:47:56,832 --> 00:47:57,832
Cool?
704
00:47:58,625 --> 00:47:59,625
Wait.
705
00:48:00,043 --> 00:48:03,338
It's... It's not nothing.
706
00:48:04,047 --> 00:48:05,882
I'd never break up your family.
707
00:48:07,718 --> 00:48:10,095
- I'd never do anything to hurt Henry.
- I know.
708
00:48:11,888 --> 00:48:14,641
I'd never get in the way
of you getting your family back.
709
00:48:16,226 --> 00:48:18,729
- I would never hurt Juliette.
- I know.
710
00:48:27,988 --> 00:48:28,989
Oh, no.
711
00:48:30,907 --> 00:48:31,950
We can't do this.
712
00:48:32,534 --> 00:48:33,368
I know.
713
00:48:33,452 --> 00:48:34,703
Shit.
714
00:48:40,125 --> 00:48:41,335
No, you...
715
00:48:41,418 --> 00:48:43,962
- You have to go before this...
- I know. We can't.
716
00:48:44,046 --> 00:48:45,881
I came here to quit.
717
00:48:45,964 --> 00:48:48,342
I thought this would make it easier.
718
00:48:48,425 --> 00:48:51,511
You don't have to do that.
719
00:48:52,095 --> 00:48:56,808
But we should talk
when we're a bit more clear-headed.
720
00:49:02,689 --> 00:49:05,025
I have never felt more clear-headed.
721
00:49:05,108 --> 00:49:07,611
But I do need time to figure out
what I'm gonna do about Love.
722
00:49:10,656 --> 00:49:14,701
I won't let her hurt you, Marienne.
I'll never let anyone hurt you.
723
00:49:14,785 --> 00:49:17,496
I will stay ahead of her this time.
724
00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:19,498
- You're home early.
- Hey.
725
00:49:19,581 --> 00:49:21,958
There you are. Did you not get my texts?
726
00:49:22,876 --> 00:49:23,919
We need to talk.
727
00:49:24,002 --> 00:49:26,064
She knows.
How the hell could she already know?
728
00:49:26,088 --> 00:49:27,589
- Is everything okay?
- No.
729
00:49:27,673 --> 00:49:30,550
Theo told me that Matthew hired a PI
to look into people.
730
00:49:30,634 --> 00:49:32,761
He doesn't think Natalie's case is closed.
731
00:49:32,844 --> 00:49:34,554
Okay. So, what does he have?
732
00:49:34,638 --> 00:49:36,473
I don't know,
but I may be able to find out.
733
00:49:36,556 --> 00:49:39,059
- How?
- We know Theo has a crush on me...
734
00:49:41,269 --> 00:49:43,480
- And you wanna use that?
- Sort of.
735
00:49:43,563 --> 00:49:46,650
Like, okay, I'm just gonna say it.
You can shoot it down.
736
00:49:46,733 --> 00:49:51,905
But I could... pretend
like he had a chance.
737
00:49:51,988 --> 00:49:55,117
Like, 19-year-olds will do anything
if they think sex is on the table.
738
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:57,035
Well, this took a turn,
739
00:49:57,119 --> 00:50:01,206
but if Love's focused on this,
she'll be too distracted to notice us.
740
00:50:01,289 --> 00:50:05,127
I know, I was... It's crazy,
and I'm asking you for a lot of trust,
741
00:50:05,210 --> 00:50:06,753
- but I really...
- It's a great idea.
742
00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:10,966
I trust you.
743
00:50:11,049 --> 00:50:12,759
We are a team.
744
00:50:13,301 --> 00:50:14,511
The best team.
745
00:50:20,809 --> 00:50:22,477
We are the best team.
746
00:50:22,561 --> 00:50:26,565
Even if we're not soul mates,
it's a kind of love.
747
00:50:26,648 --> 00:50:32,028
And it keeps her eyes somewhere else,
so the rest I can give to you.
748
00:50:32,112 --> 00:50:35,031
This is great for everyone.